My Death, Not Yours

I’m not afraid of death. I’m not going to hasten it because I have people and animals I love. But I don’t fear it. 

A life on this planet should not go on indefinitely. Mine included. There is a lot of pain. Physical, mental, soulful. A person can only take so much. I’m relieved I won’t be here forever. I’m grateful for what I’ve been given. I can certainly pass it on to others. 

I think of death as a transition. I was born not knowing what the hell was going on with that process of being thrust out of a comfortable universe. I figure death is similar. If I can survive birth and all that comes with it, I can certainly survive death. They are one and the same.

I’m grateful this complicated life on earth business will come to a conclusion. I’m not in a hurry. I’ve died many times in my dreams. My response is always, “Ah, so this is how it happens.” I’m more curious than fearful. It may involve pain I can’t anticipate but then it’s over.

I think of it as a means to an end with a rebirth I can’t possibly fathom. That’s how rebirths should be. A sense of entering the unknown. It will be brand new. My molecules will break apart and reconnect in an unknown way. Who knows? I might be a rock. I like rocks. 

Thank goodness it ends. This record is getting old. The sound is scratchy and the needle is dull. Play it again, Sam, for someone else. 

L’Chaim. 

6.12.25

Fear at a Crossroads

(A Meditation: as long as one has food, housing, decent medical care, and basic freedoms)

Be in a comfortable, safe place of being

with your ancestors* all around you 

Know they are rooting for you 

And feel it with your whole self

Including the cells of your body

When you’re ready:

Feel your past with all its complexities 

And all you have learned from it

And all you will continue to learn from it

When you’re ready:

Feel your present with the glorious self discoveries, enjoyment, and celebrations 

No matter how big or small 

Toss the negatives for now 

When you’re ready:

Feel your future 

Trust it is coming 

With its known and unknowable

With its challenges and beauty

Know it is yours

Designed by your wisdom part

Trust it

Embrace it

Know no matter what 

You will be okay 

Because you are okay 

And the best parts of all of you 

Are looking out for you 

And will continue to

In every moment of your life

Draw it to you with the strings of your soul

Know it will be good 

Not perfect but good 

Let it be unshaped

Trust that you can meet it

And do exactly what you need to do

To bring about the best possible outcome 

That’s all you need to know 

Feel the encirclement of love from your ancestors, your self, and those who know you best

Sit with this truth and trust it

Until you are ready to move on

Arise knowing your strength 

And trusting your resources

Inside and out

To protect you in all the ways you need protection 

And experience the rest of your day in peace 

Knowing you are safe, protected, and loved 

6.5.25

*Or those who have loved you